Kerry Katona feeling ‘down’ as she’s set to be without her kids at Christmas

Kerry Katona has opened up on her disappointment at not having a full house this Christmas.

The 44-year old shares daughters Molly, 22, and Lilly-Sue, 20, with former Westlife star, Brian McFadden, as well as Heidi, 16, and Max, 15, with her ex, Mark Croft, and DJ, nine, with the late George Kay. Her two eldest will be absent from the dinner table on Christmas Day, however, due to Molly's work commitments and Lilly travelling to spend time with her dad and paternal grandparents.

As well as her three youngest, however, Kerry will be joined by her fiancé Ryan, whilst Lilly will arrive later with her boyfriend to join in the festivities. Kerry said she doesn't begrudge Lilly spending time with Brian, meanwhile, after admitting she wished the pair had been more "civil" for the kids' sake when they divorced in 2004.

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Writing in her OK! Magazine column, Kerry penned: "Christmas this year is a little bit different because Molly and Lilly won't be with me for dinner. When we're not all together, it does get me down a little bit, but I am still looking forward to it."

The inability to be in the same room as first husband Brian is Kerry's "biggest regret", she also confessed. "There's no animosity from my end, but we just never did that. If you can, remain friends for your children's sake," she said. The pair split after just two years of marriage after Brian had a fling with a stripper.

Recalling the moment in time, Kerry told Ellie McKay's podcast Brian went missing for three days prior to the well-publicised break-up. "I remember I was doing a TV show called With a Little Help from My Friends and I was in England," she explained. "Normally when me and Brian were away from each other we call each other 17 times a day." But after 72 hours, Brian called and said: "I want a divorce."

Kerry was saddened further this week, meanwhile, by the death of her "childhood sweetheart". She struggled to hold back the tears as she revealed that her friend Deano, who was the first boy to ever "break” her heart, had passed away.

In an emotional tribute on Instagram the mum-of-five shared a snap of her late pal which she captioned with "RIP", followed by a broken heart emoji. She then shared a touching message from her bed to her first love alongside a snap of her with tears streaming down her face.

Kerry wrote: "You’ll always be forever in our hearts, so many funny crazy memories we all made together. As sad as it was saying goodbye to you today, it was so good to catch up with old friends and reminisce about all the funny crazy s**t we got up to. Always in our hearts. What a surreal and sad day, said goodbye today to one of my childhood friends. First boy ever to break my heart 'Deano'."

The blonde bombshell, who is currently playing the Wicked Queen in the production of Snow White and the Seven Dwarfs, added: "Honestly don’t know how the hell I just got through that last show."

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